There have been some major decisions and major changes taking place in our household over the past month or so. I have alluded to some of this in some of my posts and tweets. I hate being cryptic in my posts, but there are times when we just have to get stuff off our chests and we can't reveal the details. This was one of those times.
A new opportunity has come to us and, although the decision was far from easy, we have decided to take it.
Today the Fabulous Dude left to go to his very last day of work at the job where he has worked since 7 months before we were wed. On Monday he will begin a new adventure. For those of you who don't know, the FD currently works for the maintenance department for an organization that supports adults with developmental disabilities. The job has been a wonderful opportunity for him, and he has met some great people, but he felt as though there was not enough room to learn and grow.
A few months ago, he was talking about employment with a local contractor who he knows and asked if he ever has extra work that he may be able to do on the side. They briefly chatted about this and went on their way. And then, about a month ago, the same man came to E and asked him if he was interested in looking for a new full time employment opportunity as a sub-contractor for him.
When the Dude came home and told me this, my automatic reaction was "$*%# no!"
I like security. I like comfort. I like familiarity. I like to do things the way we have always done them.
But, I am not the one who got up every morning and went to a job that I was not entirely satisfied with.
For the first little while, the Dude and I could not even discuss the issue as two grown adults because I would find myself curling up into my little shell and crying like a child (see yesterday's post re: out of control hormones and emotions). Eventually, after a great deal of prayer, talking with some of our mentors, and each other - I began to feel a sense of peace about the entire situation.
After weighing the pros and cons of both options, we decided that it was an opportunity that the E should take. The change clearly involves some major benefits and some major risks, which I won't get into here. It is also coming at a time that is crazy and stressful for both of us - a time full of big changes. I completed grad school this week. Our baby is due in 3 months. It's not just us we have to worry about anymore. Big things are happening.
So, while this may be the best decision we have ever made together, it may not be. But, we will find out. I don't believe that God calls us to a life of complacency simply because it is what we are used to. We are confident that the Lord has steered us in this direction and that His hand will continue to guide us. I rest secure in the confidence that He holds us in the palm of His hand.
And yes, this confidence is much easier spoken than lived - despite the fact that I have been feeling a sense of peace about this decision - I cannot say that I have not caught myself worrying and stewing over it a number of times. It is a journey.
My friends, I covet your prayers as we embark on this adventure together as a family - as we adjust to new schedules, new routines, new responsibilities, new challenges, and new rewards.