Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Becoming Big Sister

My Sweet Evalyn,

The last time I sat down to write a letter to you, we were a mere 10 days away from meeting your Baby Sister, Gwen. As I wrote that letter, tears literally streaming down my cheeks, I was lamenting over the changes that were heading your way. Of course, I spent hours, perhaps days, worrying and wondering about how you would do as you transformed from my only baby to my oldest baby within a matter of minutes. I was worried because you are far too young to understand and prepare yourself for what was ahead. I was worried because you are a Mama’s girl and I wondered how you’d do when you had to share my attention. I was worried because I didn’t know how I’d possibly have the energy to give 100% to two children. I was worried because I thought you would be jealous. I was worried because I thought you might regress in sleep. I was worried because I thought you might not like spending a few days away from me when the baby was born.

But, girl, you have, once again – surprised me and exceeded my expectations completely.

You have made this transition with ease and I am so, so, so proud of you, my sweet girl.

Sisters

On July 2nd, your Daddy and I weren’t the only ones to fall head over heels in love with Gwennie from the moment we first saw her face. When you arrived home with Papa after your nap, and saw your 7 hour old baby sister for the first time, your life was changed. And immediately, you loved her.

Since that day, the infatuation hasn’t worn off. The first thing you say every morning is “Where’s Baby Gwennie? See her? Kiss her!” You want to hold her, kiss her, pat her and love her all the time. You often tell Mommy to “seed Gwennie” (feed Gwennie) and are concerned if you think I didn’t give her enough milk. You’re protective when people you don’t know well are holding her. You just want to make sure she’s safe, I think. For the first days you were confused and called her Baby Connor or Baby Silas (what her name would have been had she been a brother) but you straightened that out. Then, for a few days, we still had to work on the “him” versus “her” thing, but we’ve straightened that out as well.

My prayer is that you always love your Baby Sister the way you do right now. I can’t wait to watch you grow up together, sharing secrets and lipstick, and hope that you will always be the best of friends. Of course, I'm not naive enough to think that you won’t have bumps along the way.

You are the sweetest Big Sister for our Gwennie. I hope you always know just how proud I am of you.

With love,

Momma

13 comments:

Katie @ Loves of Life said...

Oh yea. Probably shouldn't have watched this days/weeks leading up to doing the same thing, because I'm a hormonal mess. BUT. I loved it all. So much. Loved the letter. Loved the video. I love love love Eva's reaction to her and how gentle and sweet she was. I will definitely be getting video of this time, too. Now that you reminded me and all. So proud of big-sister evalyn :)

Brittany Ann said...

I'm with Katie. I just bawled like a baby watching that. Your blog keeps making me cry, girly;)

Anyway, I needed to see that video:)

And I love to hear how awesome it is to watch your girls together!

Good job, Evalyn!

Samantha said...

1. SO proud of Eva. Seriously she did really well and I am impressed.

2. This is the second ugly cry in two weeks from you missy. Consider yourself on notice! ;)

Gina said...

I'm joining the crying over the video club.

Also? Eva's speech and language is amazing. Good job, momma.

Katie said...

I am so glad you shared this video! Such sweetness!

Stephanie said...

Not only is Eva beyond adorable with Gwen in this video, but Evan talking to her is precious, too! haha. Love it!

Liz said...

Oh my goodness, how sweet. What a great moment to have captured. :) And btw, Brady not only couldn't grasp the him/her thing, but continually calls her "it".

Logi said...

That video is so precious! How wonderful it is that you have that reminder of such a special time with your family.

Jess said...

Oh my holy Lord, I am sobbing. That was so absolutely sweet.

I think, because my kids are older, I KNOW how beautiful that relationship with siblings is, and so seeing Eva with Gwen reminded me of those moments in my own life.

God. I'm literally weeping. I can't stop. Lol

Sarah said...

What a beautiful family you have there! That video is so cute! What a sweet big sister. :) Congrats to you guys!

Crystal Seed said...

That video is just the sweetest ever!! And you look awesome!!!!

Perfectly Imperfect said...

So I'm in tears now. Thanks for that. That was just the sweetest little thing I've ever seen. She is precious with her little sister "Silas" ;) You've got a sweet, sweet girl there lady.

Lucky in Love said...

Love this video :) Having a sister is so special. Your little family is so lucky!!