I am finding it very hard to believe that this week marks two months since Evalyn entered our lives. Can somebody please explain to me where the time went? Because I sure as heck have no idea.
Yesterday I got to thinking about some of the things that I didn’t expect as I entered motherhood. One of those things – something that no one could have ever prepared me for – is the number of different emotions that I would feel (not to mention the intensity of those emotions).
Some of the things I have felt over the past two months are:
~ joyful ~ elated ~ helpless ~ like a rock star ~ confident ~ insecure ~ exhausted ~ energetic ~ in love ~ nervous ~ worried ~ puzzled ~ complete ~
I have felt some of these things at different times, and some at the same time. How it’s possible to feel like a rockstar and to feel insecure at the same time, I’ll never know – but it’s somehow possible.
I have had days where I feel 100% confident in the decisions I’m making with Evalyn and other days where I’ve felt like I’m doing it all wrong.
I have had days where I feel like I can tackle a billion jobs and conquer the world and other days where I feel like I can’t even manage to change my underoos.
I have had days where I feel like this baby mama thing ain’t so bad at all and other days where I feel like I will never survive the next few months.
But, through them all, I know one thing …
This girl lights up my life
and I wouldn’t have it any other way.