A Letter From Your Mama

I wrote this letter what seems like a long, long time ago, way back in January, a few days after I found out I was pregnant. I couldn't post it then, because it was our little secret, and then I forgot about it until now. I just found it when organizing some files on my computer because we're getting ready to get a new laptop and I decided to post it so that I have it here to remember and to keep with all of the other posts that I will hopefully someday print out and put into a book for the baby.

January 12, 2010

Dear Baby,

You sure surprised me the other day when I found out that you were on your way – making a home for yourself inside of me. Daddy was surprised, too. I am sure this isn’t the only time in your life that you will surprise us. Being surprised isn’t a bad thing. I have found, especially over the past few years, that some of the very best things happen to me when I just stop planning! I have felt every emotion that exists over the past couple of days. I cannot stop thinking about you.

I can’t wait until the day that I can feel you moving inside me. I am so excited to watch you grow. Even more so, I can’t wait until the day that I get to hold you in my arms. I can’t wait to see Daddy’s face when he looks at you, holds you, and kisses you for the first time.

Baby, your Daddy and I were both blessed when we were little because we had wonderful families to teach us, to love us, and help us grow. I can’t wait for you to meet your Nanas and your Papas, your Aunties and Uncles, and your cousins. Your family loves you already, and most of them don’t even know about you yet.

I may not always be able to give you everything you want, sweet baby, but I promise to try to always give you what you need. Sometimes you might think that I am being mean or unfair, but I hope you will always know that I love you.

Baby, I have prayed for you for a long, long time. I don’t know what you will look like, what your name will be, or what kind of personality you will have, but I do know that I love you and I have been waiting for you. Daddy has been, too. Your Daddy and I have always looked forward to the day that we would learn you were going to be a part of our family. Even before your Daddy and I were in love, we both knew we wanted to have babies. In many ways, those desires are what brought us close together in the first place.

Baby, I want you to know Jesus and His love every single day of your life. I want to talk to you about Him, to read to you about Him, to sing to you about Him, to teach you about Him, and to pray to Him with you. I have a feeling you will have a thing or two to teach me about Him, too.

Even though I can’t see you, or even feel you, yet, I know that you are a part of me. I know that God is knitting you together inside me, preparing you for the day you will enter the world. You have already become a part of my world.

I am so thankful that God has chosen me to be your Mommy. I will hold onto you forever.

I love you more than you can know,

Mama