We were now nearing the end of our high school career. With about two weeks left of school, the fabulous dude made a shocking confession. He was deeply and madly in love with me. Well, not quite.
BUT, he did tell me he was disappointed that nothing had ever happened between us. I was shocked by this revelation because I had always felt as though he had no interest in me as more than a friend especially considering he had not pursued anything after the Beauty and the Beast ballet weekend. Apparently, his impression was that I had not pursued anything following that weekend. "Umm, hello?", I was thinking, "Don't you realize that pursuing something would have been YOUR job?".
At this point, we were both dating/seeing other people (me seriously, him not so seriously). He wasn't asking me to drop everything I was doing and start a relationship with him but he thought he should lay everything out on the table before we left GL and let me know that if the time was right in the future he would be interested in me. At this point I did not know that he had already told his best friend that he intended to marry me.
He pointed out some issues that he saw as problematic in the relationship I was in. At first I got very defensive and thought he had no right to tell me why he didn't think I should be dating this guy. Then, as time wore on, I realized that many of the things he pointed out were very true and that perhaps he was telling me simply because he knew me so well.
This "confession" made the last few weeks of high school very difficult and confusing for me. I was already an emotional basket case as I was swiftly approaching the end of what seemed to me like an era. I was preparing to leave GL, which had been my home for 4 years. I was preparing to say goodbye to my friends who came from all different parts of the province and country and even some from the US. I was trying to focus on my studies, to ensure that I successfully completed all my exams. I was busy finishing the yearbook and taking care of end of the year student council events. I had more to worry about than deciding what to do about the new information I had just received from the fabulous dude.
He told me to spend some time thinking about it and talking to the people I trusted. So, I did. I talked to my mom and dad, I talked to my mentors, T and S, I talked to my best friends. They all had opinions about what I should do, but no one could give me a clear answer.
Exams came and went. I tried to act as though everything was normal. I helped the fabulous dude study and typed up a couple of his final reports. Our Spring Banquet came and it was announced that we had been selected for the citizenship award: Mr. and Mrs. GL (think prom king and queen at a school that doesn't have prom). That meant that for the entire day of commencement and graduation we would have to be together.
I wasn't sure how I felt about this because I was still an ounce mad at him for unloading all of his feelings on me at such a horrible time. I was so dreadfully confused. In the meantime, my current boyfriend knew that something weird was going on with me and my Mom and Dad were upset with me because they really liked the boyfriend. But, I tried to push all of that away and enjoy my last day of high school.
To be continued...
The Real Life Romance series is being linked up at MM&Ms at Musings of a Future Pastor's Wife