Today I am having such a full heart day. The kind of day where I look at my toddler, feel a gush of emotion, and know that I am exactly where I am meant to be.
I’ll be the first to admit that that is not always the case. Spending my days with my 19 month old is not always a walk in the park. She pushes my buttons. She tests the boundaries. I lose my patience more than I’d like to admit. I question the way I teach her, discipline her, and interact with her often.
Sometimes I wonder if I am doing the best for her. If my decision to be a (mostly) SAHM is the best thing for her or if I should change gears and start focusing on building my career more.
But then God throws me a day like today. A day where I listen to her call her Uncle Evan and Aunt Linda first thing in the morning to sing “Happy Birthday to you” over and over and over again to them. Where we go to the Early Year’s Centre for music and craft time and I watch her as she is starting to learn how to follow directions and play along with games. Where I play shapes with her and discover that she can identify a star, heart, square, circle and triangle. Where I put her down for her nap and as she snuggles in with me, she attempts to sing along with “Here I am to Worship” tossing in a word here and there. Where a stranger comments on how polite and well mannered she is. And then, I know. I am where I need to be.
At this moment? There is no question. I am confident that I was made for such a time as this.